The Last Chance to Remember
Chapter 5. AIR RAIDS
had numbed thoughts and feelings, because nobody knew what would the
next minute bring for us? This is why it is so difficult to explain
those hours and that time; who can understand it now? So much later,
in a special peaceful and quiet atmosphere, to talk about such disturbing
times, is far from the real happenings. What is it to be and live in
danger, in fear?
hear all the easy criticism, why didn't we try to go away. But where?
And how? It was too late, too risky. Some people were lucky, they escaped,
but many, many just tried in vain. Many committed suicide, with the
whole family. Also we just couldn't or didn't want to believe all these
horror stories. Who can believe with a normal mind that in the 20th
century some people can go mad and behave like animals? maybe like cannibals!?
They let their sadistic fantasies go free and nobody stopped them. It
all happened in the wide open for the whole world to see and hear. Unfortunately
the easiest answer was to look aside. And lastly we didn't believe that
Hungary's Regent Horthy Micholas would let us go. We trusted him naively.
But we also found out that he himself was put under house arrest.
were just hoping that the war would come to an end so we could be spared
from this horrible plague. I still see my father with the map always
open with tiny flags following the happenings. We tried to hope right
until the tragic day of March 19, 1944, when the German army marched
in and this was the beginning of the end.
words can describe the dead silence, the numb fear, that like a dark
cloud would descend on our homes and the whole city. We were panic stricken,
the streets were completely empty, not a soul was in sight nor was the
slightest sound heard. There was silence all over, just like in a cemetery.
After their arrival they terrified the public thoroughly. On the first Wednesday, early in the morning, they looked up and arrested the older and better known men and took them away. After this frightful experience, we all expected a similar surprise visit but it did not come until Friday evening, when the fire broke out in our plant.