The Last Chance to Remember
Chapter 31. HERE WE GO AGAIN!
we go again." It must have been unpleasant for her and she didn't
want to be reminded. I was speechless and only looked straight in her
eyes. What could I say? I couldn't find any words.
so many bitter experiences and painful memories we tried to find our
peace of mind, our place, where hopefully we would be left alone. But
this unpleasant, rude remark tore up yet unhealed wounds.
they ever have an end?
search for a free country, where life can be relatively undisturbed
was not easy. We settled down and made our home in Canada and hopefully
our choice was a lucky one. Here we try to start a new life, to work
hard for a better future and find some trust in mankind again. Unfortunately,
we were deeply disillusioned before with the tragic happenings in our
life; for that the only soothing help is a quiet life, free from hatred
or spitefulness. I try to find some answers, why is it that some feel
so superior, by what right? Where do they find this courage?! There
are judges, official people who should follow the law and punish those
who deserve it! Some are convinced that the whole world belongs to them,
so they feel so powerful. Why? It is frightening and tiring that here
where we try to pick up the pieces and start a new life we have to feel
again those hateful looks. Again! Why is it that some are so self confident!
We are acknowledged as civilized people, we learn constantly something
new, we can reach places where human beings couldn't go before?! Why
is it that here, on this earth, we cannot tolerate each other. There
is no solution, no answer because greed is very common, sad but true.
Hostility, bickering, whether in politics or in private life is often
heard, because the desire for power is great. Only the road to get there
is not smoothly paved.
can be beautiful in nice family surroundings. We don't need much, only
peace, peace of mind, good health, affection and to be able to give,
help others! I know it sounds naive, but I feel strongly about it this
way and firmly believe that this is the core in every happiness! Unfortunately
we have to experience some kind of a new wave with hostility, that is
most disappointing and disturbing. Some loud mouth people try to distribute
hateful lies, try to blind the world with all kinds of made up stories.
They have the guts to cover up, trying at least very hard, as if our
tragedy would never have happened! Without shame, they try to deny although
unfortunately too late, but by now the whole world knows the very truth!
is the biggest sin, to touch our martyrs memory.
it enough that it had to happen?
would be more beneficial if they wouldn't try to interfere. If they
are really publishers, why don't they use their talent for some less
serious, real happenings? They cannot seriously believe, that anybody
in this world will believe one word of what they are trying to say?
A whole group of trouble makers were put on trial and they still maintained
loudly their hostile gesture, their "truth". They appeared
in the court room in helmets, of whom were they afraid? Many times in
my darkest hours I had long talks with them. How did you dare to touch
this deeply distressing and sensitive, sore in our life? This brought
on only destruction?! I have very little to say, you all tried your
best to defend your people, but you are a disgrace to your country!
I am not trying to explain anything or convince anybody, because I have
my simple reasons: "I was there, I lived through and saw everything
and came back."
really don't know how, but I know why?! I came back from this hell because
I have a duty to tell the truth, to tell the world,what had happened
and where are the missing millions and millions of our people? I came
back from this unforgettable, cursed place, where the smile disappeared
from the young forever and the rest of us, we who survived, live with
our bruised hearts to the very last, only try to mingle with everybody
shall never forget any one of you!
Your memory lives in our heart as an eternal light forever!