The Last Chance to Remember
Chapter 22. TRYING TO COPE WITH OUR NEW FOUND FREEDOM
sister is and always was a very able and adventurous girl so here she
didn't wait too long either, but volunteered to look around for some
food, with another girl. Very shortly she was back with a bag of sugar
in her hands, but unfortunately two soldiers had followed them and they
were not exactly sober. The wooden stairs creaked under their heavy
and strong steps and heavy boots. The doors opened, there they stood
with a machine gun. They didn't use their hands, only those ugly guns
which were really frightening. They looked under the bed where we had
hidden one of the very young girls. When they reached for her she gave
out a shriek full of fear and somehow they let her go. The other young
girls disappeared under their mothers in the double bed. I didn't see
my sister but was hoping that she was hiding with the other girls. I
found out only much later, that unfortunately she had a similar experience
as mine, but miraculously she was saved.
was concerned about me and I was left lying on the floor. In the shape
I was in I never dreamed that I could have this kind of problems. Since
nobody else was there, one of the soldiers came to me and called me
out. I answered in Slovak that I am old. I really felt like a very old
and aged person. He checked my face with his flashlight and said in
Russian, that this was not true and started to pull me. I was sure that
he would leave me alone, but he gave me two minutes to change my mind.
We became very excited in the room and tried to find some safe alternatives,
but everything seemed just too dangerous, because they were so strong
and would just be angered. I really wondered then and even today that
they were not more arrogant and aggressive.
enough, very shortly they both came back straight to me, the only one
left on the floor, and started to pull me. I tried with all my might
to cling to the leg of the iron-stove with one hand, with my other free
arm was hugging his boots and begging him to leave me alone. He was
kneeling beside me, he looked so strong like a giant. Of course I was
already very frightened.
I tried to talk to him; for how long we were waiting for them, dreaming
of this day, day and night, and all the time and after so much struggle
he wants to finish me? He wants nothing just to go out with me for a
while. The other soldier lost his patience and talked to him in Russian
(which we understood) what are you asking her so much, take her out
and after throw her out through the window. Under the window was a big
lake where big ships were visible. It was navigable.
he grabbed me with force, I became agitated, crying and gasping for
air, I was terrified! I begged him to leave me alone, please, please!
In my excitement I felt like suffocating, because I started to cough
too, so with my sobbing, desperate crying for help I suddenly blurted
out please, I am sick, I am sick! I didn't exaggerate, I don't know
where I found those words and suddenly some strength pushed me. Unfortunately
it was the truth, I really felt very sick, more than sick.
he heard the magic word, sick, he became panicky and let me go in one
minute. He shouted at me angrily, why didn't I tell him before? By sickness
of course he meant something else, but who cared? For the time being
I was saved and this was a good lesson for us. Because this type of
danger escorted us all the way. It also helped a bit that Clara mentioned
the word Commandatura; if I die there after the liberation because of
him this would be reported. This sobered him. They were terrified of
was hoping that my sister was safe, but the poor girl she had a similar
experience, thank God, she escaped also. It was a very frightening experience
for both of us, which we cannot forget. The girls downstairs unfortunately
were not so lucky and had a very unpleasant experience.
Next morning everything was quiet. The Russians disappeared and we tried to rest and believe that the road going home was opened up for us.