Part II
A
Rabbi from Garmish Partenkirchen came to officiate the wedding ceremony
attended by our small family: my sister Bela, Chaim's two brothers Jacob
and Elek, and my cousin Peter. Friends and acquaintances staying in
the hotel were all young people, all concentration camp survivors. The
most important people were missing: my parents and brother, Chaim's
mother and sister. During the last deportation from Radom, my father
left his job at Bata, which uncle Chemie had secured for him, in order
to join my mother and brother who had been released from jail for deportation.
Together they walked to the train, that final route to Treblinka. Through
his work, my father could have been saved for the time being, however,
he chose not to leave his wife or son. Despite that, I had to realize
the fact that most people had no one. I, at least, had a sister. Our
guests presented us with little poems, cards with good wishes. I still
cherish them and all the pictures that tell the story, so vividly, of
how a wedding of two survivors looked in 1946, with all their guests
who had lived through concentration camps.
Our
aspirations for the future were on an even keel. We both aimed to build
a life in Palestine, help make it a Jewish homeland. Our efforts to
secure passage, even illegally, were untenable at the time. Impatiently,
we waited for an opportunity to emigrate to a free, democratic country
away from Europe. To occupy the time while waiting, I eagerly took English
lessons from a retired German professor. This study filled the days
with something interesting to do, something that might be useful.
Then
something wonderful happened: I became pregnant. I had been doubtful
whether I would still function as a normal woman and whether we would
be able to bear children. A general belief had circulated in the concentration
camps that special medication had been added to our meager soup in order
to prevent menstruation or pregnancy. However, certain young Jewish
women maintained that, even if they would become pregnant in Germany,
they would terminate the pregnancy. We believed quite the opposite:
to us, creating new life reaffirmed not only our own personal continuity,
but also national survival. This continuity was exactly the way to negate
the Nazi purpose of eliminating the Jews. A few women did have curettages
performed, this without regard for the gift of new life so precious
for a Jew after the enormous losses we suffered.
We
were blessed with a perfect baby boy on December 11, 1947, whom we named
after Chaim's father, Aron Baruch. My advisers in child rearing were
a German midwife and Mrs. Charmark, a German Jewess who was a bit older
and had had children before the war. We created new life, and this made
us a real family. Now the need to emigrate became even more urgent.
After a few months hoping and waiting, a delegation from the U.S. Ladies
Garment Union, with some representatives from the Canada Union, were
looking for tailors; the successfully developed needle trade in the
United States and Canada had been in mainly Jewish hands. Those qualified
received a visa and a promise of employment. Thanks to the Jewish communities
in both countries--their influence and guarantee of jobs--consent from
the government had been obtained to admit Jews. Entering Canada or the
US was not easy: there were medical scrutinies, the testing of working
skill capabilities, plus the signing of documents assuring that we would
not become wards of the state. It was only in the late 1980s, when Irving
Abella and Harold Troper published their book entitled None Is Too
Many that I found out how extremely difficult it was in Canada to
open the doors and admit Jewish survivors. Chaim passed the tests twice
with flying colours; he had worked as a tailor before the concentration
camps. As soon as the acceptance to Canada was posted for Chaim and
Jacob, a glimpse of hope entered our heart: a hope to live in a free
democratic country, to rebuild shattered lives.
Preparation
began for a new country we knew very little about. In Auschwitz, a commando
that handled clothing and other possessions synonymous with wealth,
was called Kanada. My imagination took hold of me: watching movies,
it was not hard for me to see myself in such favourable circumstances.
Bela and I were even prepared with gowns made from parachutes in the
latest fashion. I knitted a dress from an unraveled G.I. sweater, dyed
a beautiful shade of reddish brown, that I wore often after first stepping
down on Canadian soil. The journey, and even our designated city, was
not as I pictured or dreamed.
The
two Gutman families, along with several hundred other passengers, all
survivors, sailed from Bremenhaven with the military ship Samaria
on November 22, 1948, destined for Montreal. On the two-week journey,
the men and women were separated, and I slept with twenty other women
and all our babies in one room. The women slept in bunk beds while the
babies were laid in woven rope baskets. We arrived in Halifax on December
3. While traveling on the train from Halifax to Montreal, our son Aron,
then eleven months old, became ill with a high temperature. In Moncton,
New Brunswick, we were taken down and sent straight to a hospital where
a pediatrician started firing questions about my baby's medical records.
I was glad that I knew a little bit of English to be able to understand
all the questions and answer with the important data. Aron's illness
happened to be a throat infection. After the consultation, my baby was
placed in isolation and the doctor advised us to go to a hotel. With
three dollars to our name in a strange country, we refused to leave
the hospital. Eventually, accommodation in a hotel was arranged for
us by the Jewish community in Moncton.
In
the morning, we had no money to order food in the hotel, so we went
to a store to buy milk--the fifteen cents a bottle--apples and bread.
When I asked for bread, however, I was shown a wrapped package of white
bread that looked to me like cake, so I asked for another type until
I was given an unwrapped loaf and already sliced for you. This I remember
as one of my first impressions of my new country. Mrs. Sara Rubin, a
vivacious, goodhearted woman, guided and reassured us through that difficult
time in Moncton. For the Friday night Shabbat meal, we were invited
to Rose Rubin's house. It was a cold December day and for the first
time in Canada, I wore my wool knitted dress. After a long week of daily
visits to the hospital and heartbreaking departures, we took our Arale
and continued the journey to Montreal. Despite insistent pleading from
the Jewish community leaders to remain in Moncton, we felt it would
not be right to part with our family.
As
promised by the union leaders, Chaim obtained a job in the needle industry.
The influx of so many displaced people filled the industry to capacity,
but also created a housing shortage, a shortage so unique that even
single rooms were set at a premium, particularly for a family with a
baby. We were lucky to find a room with a family that had brought up
six children who were by then all grown up, with children of their own.
We rented one room, but had space on others for storage, and used their
kitchen and all their facilities. The Holtzmans accepted us, loved our
son Aron. He padded around the house and Mr. Holtzman let Aron pick
food from his plate, claiming, "He is so lovable, eats my food
willingly," while Aron rejected proper baby food. I developed a
very good rapport with that family. Their daughters Katy, the oldest,
and Riva, the youngest, paid special interest in us. They encouraged
me to drop the name Mania, a polish adaptation of my real name Malka,
suggesting "Myra," a Canadian name easy to pronounce. I have
been using it ever since. We have remained friendly with this family
all these years, and have been included in their great celebrations
like Bar Mitzvahs and weddings.
A
one-room arrangement was fine for the beginning. But, like all young
people, we were striving for better. We found a house on Van Horne,
away from Main Street, now St. Laurent, and our new location was considered
at that time to be a very favourable one. However, it was a cold flat.
Like many in Montreal at that time, it required a pay-up called "key
money". For this money, we received from the previous tenants a
gas stove for cooking, one iron stove for heating the house, a wood
and coal burner, and an old, badly damaged table. We rented together
with Bela and Jacob, and the rent for the house was less than we had
paid for our rooms.
From
early on, survivors kept in touch, comparing notes about jobs, housing,
and so on. Getting out from a room to a rented flat was considered a
first achievement. However, while discussing with family, logic dictated
that we rent a flat together only until it was economically feasible
to rent a flat or apartment independently. After three years, each couple
-- my husband and I and Bela and Jacob -- moved into separate homes.
Ours was a heated upper five-room flat with a balcony: definite improvement.
It still required "key money," but for it we received a gas
stove, an old carper, and an upright piano that we put to good use.
Our son Aron started piano lessons at five years old, and Mrs. Priciosi,
a serious classical piano teacher, even arranged exams at the McGill
Conservatory of Music. Aron passed with honours at the beginner level
and, while he was preparing, our house was filled with repeated practice
scales and fine musical pieces which we enjoyed.
Hyman
was not happy with seasonal work on ladies suits and coats; he wanted
to switch to a more lucrative branch of the needle trade. Our friend
ran a small fur manufacturing business and encouraged Hyman to try fur
finishing. Srulek Schwartzbaum offered Hyman his first fur coat on which
to try his skills, so he did. Hyman eventually opened a small factory
in contracting fur finishing. Financially, we were slowly progressing.
But not everything in our life was without lumps. In 1951, I gave birth
to a little girl that was sickly from the day she was born. She had
a weak, enlarged heart and an improperly developed digestive system.
We were constantly at the doctor's, always receiving the same answer:
no cure available. She took very little food, and at one year old, was
very weak and could barely stand. The poor sweet face cried so much.
I constantly cuddled her, carried her around. Pediatrician Alton Goldbloom's
diagnosis was the same as the other doctors'. He frankly added that
he did not expect her to live beyond a couple of years. At fifteen months,
Peal Lanna died a crib death. So many losses, so much sorrow. I had
to endure the death of my baby, but I could not. A nervous breakdown
followed. One day out walking, I suddenly did not know where I was or
why I was there. Most of the time, I could not sleep, and I often had
heart palpitations to such a degree that a heart specialist advised
surgery on the nerve around the heart. We were again spending money
on doctors. When Aron was in school, I gave in to my suffering, and
it took hold of my physical and emotional being.
On
one particular visit to my doctor, his scolding got to me. He pointed
out the devastation my depression could inflict on my healthy, wonderful
child who, he noted, needed my full attention and love, as did my husband.
I realized I had a job to do. Not I alone suffered: my loved ones suffered
too. It was up to me to lighten the sorrow by concentrating on the task
at hand. In my thoughts, I wandered back again to the upheaval I and
others had endured, somehow survived. I had to find ways to overcome
this upheaval too.
I
started evening courses to learn English, in free moments listening
attentively to the radio's speech and sound. While listening to classical
music, I doodled and eventually found pleasure in drawing. Looking for
beauty in my surroundings prompted me to join a drawing-from-life class.
At my teacher's suggestion, I started copying the masters and that really
helped me to appreciate the arts ad to develop better skills in shape
and colour. In daily housekeeping, I found decorating challenges in
making drapes, slipcovers, and sewing for myself. Sewing clothes for
Aron was pure joy.
Our
hard work and frugal living paid off. We came closer to our objective
which was, namely, to have a house of our own. In 1959, we paid in towards
the purchase of a duplex in Ville Saint Laurent, Quebec. It is a residential
area, with a school just at the end of our block in a lovely park with
a tennis court. I just couldn't wait to move in! To ensure we would
not run into debt, we opted out and stayed in a rented flat at the corner
of Clark and Bernard until we could pay off the second mortgage. We
still lived frugally: dining out was a luxury we did not indulge in
the early years. I cooked and baked wholesome nourishing meals from
scratch. Food for the soul, like going to the theatre or a movie, was
the only thing we allowed ourselves to spend money on. But mainly in
the little leisure time away from work, we enjoyed reading with classical
music playing in the background. This made for quiet relaxing evenings.
Besides
taking care of my small family, I devoted time to help Hyman in the
fur finishing business. I had no time left to brood. In fact, I still
longed to increase the family, to provide a sibling for Aron. We had
the perfect situation for a larger family: our own home, a back yard
with maple trees; lilacs and jasmine releasing perfume; the sun greeted
us in the kitchen in the mornings and then wandering around the house,
bringing a little sun to the bedroom in the afternoon and to my heart
daily. I became pregnant. We joined an Orthodox synagogue, The Young
Israel of Val Royal, a young congregation in which we all had small
children. Things were going well, but in the eighth month of my pregnancy,
I got sick with a flu and fever. Consequently, I was rushed to the hospital.
The premature delivery did not go well. My baby lived only one hour.
I was put in isolation, and nurses wore masks when they delivered medication
or tended to my comfort. I was not told about my baby's death until
my loud demands the next day to see my child. In isolation, the only
person who visited me was Chaim. After a seemingly lengthy stay, I was
discharged from the hospital, heartbroken. I was very weak from the
flu and the difficult delivery, but these were minor problems compared
to my emotional state, to one more lost war. It was a difficult challenge
to divert that sorrow to an activity that would bring me peace. Once
again I called on artistic expression and the practice of yoga to help
me overcome my sorrow. In fact, I came back ready for a new phase.
Our
friends were other survivors. For example, I developed a lasting friendship
with two women on the boat coming over from Germany. On the boat, we
were living together in one room, each with a baby with different needs
on a ship designed for military use. We helped each other to keep the
babies comfortable. My limited knowledge of English became a great asset
to translate to a doctor or cook about medical problems or food requirements.
I general, survivors felt at ease in the company of other survivors.
My husband and I joined the Radomer Society, a substitute for an extended
family. Some members had known my uncles or aunts, and we found comfort
in each other. The Society was formed many years ago, and the input
of post-war newcomers revived activities, concentrating mainly on mutual
help. We actually formed a sub-culture in the Jewish community in Montreal.
At
that time, the Lansmanshaft evolved into more than just a support
system or an extended family. The Radomer Mutual Aid Society is built
on the European home tradition. We extended help to those still stuck
in Europe, and, as people in Montreal found their footing help was directed
to needy survivors in Israel, such as the establishment of scholarships
for young people. This practice continued into the late nineties as
the Society's social activities diminished and charitable endeavours
increased. Often, these efforts, in which we sent out substantial amounts
of money, were directed to needy survivors in Israel like the Technion
-- university focusing on technical education -- and Magen David Adom,
which is like the Red Cross of Israel. We furnished them with an ambulance
and lifesaving equipment and machines. We also had a quarterly paper
keeping a link with the remnant of Radomer survivors throughout the
world. We published a comprehensive documentary book about the vibrant
Jewish community life in Radom, Poland, where only a few old gravestones
remain. Families, communities: all gone. The hurt remains.
At
the Radomer Society, Mr. and Mrs. Putershmit, a couple interested in
Yiddish literature, invited my husband and I to join a reading club.
The group was older and, I may add, wiser, and devoted Saturdays to
Yiddish literature (they frowned on card players). Hyman was more proficient
in Yiddish, and I tagged along but did not read to the club aloud --
instead, after a while I brought in a book review in English. Indeed
it was a pleasure to listen to how beautifully they recited the works
of Yiddish poets like Peretz, Sholom Aleichem, and read and discuss
Jewish philosophers with the skill of scholars. We took to that group
like fish to water. We continued to study with that group for many years.
A milieu of people in love with Yiddish literature in all its facets
deeply affected my whole being. Pride in our heritage came once again
to the forefront of my thoughts.
By
that time, Aron needed less mothering and we encouraged him to bring
his friends home in order to fill the void of siblings. As a young man,
he was content with a circle of friends that kept him socially active,
and was eager to work after school and during summer vacation to help
subsidize his university tuition, or just to have additional spending
money. As a result, I was free to devote more time to issues close to
my heart. When neo-Nazis like Ernst Zundel started to boldly denounce
the Holocaust, I was among the first to join, in 1960, a group of survivors
under the leadership of Lou Zablow, who formed the Association of Survivors
of Nazi Oppression. Some of our members included Aba Beer, Joe Fishman,
Isaac Piasetski, Isie Visfield, Tibi Weinberg and, of the women, Helen
Ackerman, Frieda Anders, Mania Borzykowski, Jane Buber, Feigl Edelstein,
Brenda Gertel, Tola Granek, Sally Kleinplatz, Lillian Laks, Julie Nattel,
Esterka Schwartzbaum, Helen Silberstein, Ema Weinberg, R. Weintraub
and Esther Wochiniak. We all saw the danger in the neo-Nazis again spreading
hate against Jews, now in our adopted country. Freedom of speech, which
is a precious right in a democracy, was being abused. Therefore our
organization's motto is: "Homage to the Dead, Warning to the Living."
When we, at first a small group of men and women meeting in Lou's basement,
discussed how to approach our task, we were all in agreement. First,
we would have to encourage survivors to open their hearts, no matter
how painful it would be, to talk about their experiences. We approached
leaders in the Jewish community, pleading to make people aware, since
with our experience we saw the danger of not stopping hatred in its
tracks before it got too difficult to handle. Our organization became
a constant reminder of the urgency to act. Together with leaders of
the Montreal Jewish community at large, we as witnesses of what verbal
persecution can lead to have helped the organization live up to its
motto: we are constantly on guard against Holocaust deniers that continue
spreading hate about and towards Jews. It took persistent dedication
to influence the federal government of Canada to pass a bill prohibiting
hate literature. This bill made hate materials of any shape punishable
by law, and so took away the tools of neo-Nazi propaganda. The objective
was achieved. An anti-hate bill was passed in Canadian Parliament and
hate propaganda of any shape became punishable by law.
I
joined the womens division under the leadership of Julie Nattel.
We conducted meetings in our homes, with the aim of educating Jews and
non-Jews about the Holocaust, and of commemorating our brethren who
perished under Nazi rule. We also devised a program to further our own
knowledge on subjects of interest to us by inviting speakers from various
fields. A few of the women were prepared and capable of talking about
their own personal experiences to students in schools, the place where
real education starts. A serious challenge was to convince the educators
that introducing this subject to students was feasible. The mens
division regularly organized mass rallies with the active participation
of all levels of government, as well as prominent leaders of the Jewish
community, youth groups, Jewish war veterans in their uniforms, displaying
their medals for bravery, and the community at large. Indeed, these
were very impressive ceremonies where the women's division took an active
part. As a member of the executive of the women's division, at one such
rally in 1972, I was given the pleasant task of addressing the honourable
Minister of Immigration of Quebec. On behalf of the Association of Survivors
of Nazi Oppression and its women's division, I thanked him for his participation
in the rally, his acknowledgment of our contribution in the past, and
his reassurance of the vital part we as a minority could play in all
endeavours of development in the beautiful province of Quebec. I added
that, hopefully with the addition of a unique Jewish culture and a continuous
effort toward bilingualism, our province could flourish in unity and
harmony with the rest of Canada.
In
1973, I was voted in as president of the women's division. With this
post came a responsibility to initiate new projects and to see to it
that all meetings and lectures were interesting. Consequently, the excellent
attendance was gratifying. I was lucky to have had an executive that
appreciated and encouraged each other (we were once called the mutual
admiration society) that gave the best of themselves. Although our program
was dedicated to the commemoration of, and education about, the Holocaust,
the Yom Kippur War stirred an overwhelming compassion for our brothers
in Israel. We decided to launch an emergency campaign where a sizable
amount of money was collected through personal contributions. After
two rewarding years as the president of the women's division, I relinquished
my office by the end of 1975 to a very able successor. My work intensified
toward developing education programs geared to our own youth in the
Jewish community and in Israel. For a while, we were searching for a
suitable project. After a visit by one of our executive members to Massuah
in Israel, we learned about a proposed program to teach youth, through
seminars, a better understanding of their historical beginnings and
the ultimate tragedy of the Holocaust. We also came upon an idea to
produce a certificate to commemorate any occasion, happy or sad, and
we were looking for an artist to present ideas. In order to save the
cost of hiring a professional artist, I offered to try, despite my beginner's
art experience. My design was received with great enthusiasm. The design's
emblem, the "torch of knowledge," symbolizes a library and
has become a tool to reach out its message not only in our community,
but in many Jewish communities in Canada and the United States. Massuah
has become a very important teaching institution on the Holocaust. Young
people from different countries arriving on tours in Israel are stationed
in Massuah for a few days of rigorous teaching before they took a trip
to Europe for the "March of the living." In addition, before
they were inaugurated into the army, Israeli soldiers are sent for education
in Israel's historical background and its implication for the Holocaust.
The certificate project became a great money raiser; it gave us the
possibility to send thousands upon thousands of dollars to our favourite
charity.
Our
own community, however, was still lacking a fully integrated education
program about our national tragedy in Europe. As I relinquished my presidency,
Lillian Laks was an executive assistant. We undertook the task of convincing
teachers, principals, and all kinds of educators, to introduce a program
on the Holocaust. We took the initiative, implemented a program of distributing
books on the subject to bright, deserving students in order to stimulate
an interest in the subject. Lillian's close contact with the Talmud
Torah became the first door opener. Others followed by engaging the
Jewish Education Council, led by Rabbi Meyer Krentzman, to obtain a
list of all Jewish schools in the greater Montreal area. There were
some interesting responses to our letters; some educators were concerned
about the negative impact Holocaust education could have on young minds.
With the help of the Education Council screening the books prior to
distribution, the project met with great success. Invitations arrived
for survivors to speak on Yom Hashoah commemorations and at schools.
Forcing our minds to recall that tragic past was then, and still is,
not easy. I have, as many others, done it willingly. While I had many
personal setbacks with my health, I found that Hata and Raya yoga practices
helped me improve relaxation and joint flexibility so I could bounce
back with new vigour to continue. I found meaning and purpose in my
survival. The scope of my work widened with the participation in communities
of the Canadian Jewish Congress. On December 2, 1971, I received the
following letter:
At
a meeting of delegates to the Plenary Assembly of the Canadian Jewish
Congress held December 1st, it was unanimously agreed to name you
as a member of the National/Regional Council of the Canadian Jewish
Congress, which is vested with full power to manage the affairs of
Congress during all times when the Plenary Assembly is not in session.
Members of the National Council also constitute the Regional Council,
which may, at its discretion, appoint additional members from among
persons resident in the Region....
The
first meeting of the Council will be...to elect officers of the Eastern
Region of Congress and members of the National Executive and of the
Regional Executive and to discuss the implementation of the resolutions
adopted at the Plenary Assembly....
Looking
forward to your full participation in Congress work, we are,
Sincerely
yours,
Murray
B Spiegel, Q.C.
Chairman,
Eastern Division
Survivors
were now entering the main stream of the Jewish community.
The
Committee of Foreign Affairs, chaired by survivor Lou Zablow, gave us
the possibility to intervene, to act if a need arose. In the Committee
for Russian Jewry, our organization took a very active part. We, more
than anyone, knew what it was to be harassed or imprisoned. Therefore,
the petition we handed out to the Russian Embassy and to the Minister
of Foreign Affairs of Canada, Mr. Mitchell Sharp, had a meaningful impact.
When the Austrian government was closing off Schoenau camp to eliminate
Russian Jewish transit through their country, our organization leaders,
Mr. Aba Beer, Lou Zablow, Isie Visfeld and myself travelled to Ottawa
and were the only delegation cordially received buy the Chargé
d'Affaire of Austria, Mr. Max Pammer. We handed him a petition on the
same issue, with a request to reopen the Schoenau transit camp for the
Russian Jews on their way to Israel, or make equal facilities available.
After a lengthy discussion, we were given reassurance that the message
would be transmitted to his government and that favourable solution
would be found, which it was.
The
next important step taken by the Canadian Jewish Congress was to establish
a Holocaust Commemoration and Education Committee, in order to plan
community-wide commemoration and teaching. The aim was not only to reach
Jewish schools, but to penetrate the Protestant high school system,
junior colleges and universities. We set out to convince educators,
in a historical perspective, that the Holocaust was not only a Jewish
but a human tragedy. A very special tool for this education became the
exhibition on the holocaust and heroism brought in from Yad Vashem in
Israel. Included were audio-visual presentations. We managed to place
this audiovisual material directly in their educational institutions.
The exhibit stirred a lively interest. Prior to the official opening
at Canadian Jewish Congress, I was asked by our national Chairman, Mr.
Aba Beer, to coordinate the exhibition activities related to it as these
were carried out by guides, members of the women's division of Survivors
of Nazi Oppression. I had the full cooperation of all involved. The
exhibition made an important impact on the community. In an impressive
ceremony attended by many delegates, the Consul general of Israel, Mr.
David Ephrati, stressed in a moving speech, the importance of our work.
While we were perpetuating the memory, recalling the genocide committed
on our own people by the Nazis, we did not forget to honour those courageous
humanitarians with enough conviction to help people in the darkest hours.
Devoting
time and effort toward this very important cause often left me emotionally
drained. To recharge my state of mind, to reach equilibrium, I escaped
to my art classes, using oils in a bold, primitive way. I found solace
by trying to capture beauty on my canvases, often not very successful,
but if one worked out and beauty came through, I relaxed with my spirit
intact.
The
Holocaust Committee of Canadian Jewish Congress, Eastern Region's membership
was made up of survivors, their children referred to as "second
generation" professional educators, and Rabbis. Discussions were
a flow of ideas from many diverse minds searching for ways to awake
curiosity in young people, and to help them achieve a deeper understanding
of the enormous loss we as a people suffered in modern history. It came
to my mind to set up a contest on the expression of the Holocaust in
different art forms. At first, many voiced surprise as I elaborated
on the possibility of offering different prizes for the best entry in
each category. I hit home with the idea. Rabbi Meyer Krentzman was the
first to support it, and as the discussion developed, almost all members
agreed. On December 8, 1977, I received the following letter from the
Holocaust Committee:
Further to the discussion at the last meeting of the Holocaust Committee,
I would like to ask you to serve as the Chairman of a Sub-Committee
to organize a contest on the Holocaust to be co-sponsored by the women's
division of the Association of Survivors and the Eastern Region....
I know that your experience in the past will serve to guide you in
running a successful contest.
Sincerely
yours,
Isaac
Piasetski, Chairman
Holocaust
Committee, Eastern Region
I
was honoured to accept to serve as Chairman, to work out and execute
plan with the help of other members and a very able executive director.
We set out to advertise all over town, in synagogues, schools, colleges
and universities. A formula was devised for the submission of original
entries in all art forms, including literature and music. The contest
was sponsored by the Holocaust Remembrance Committee, Quebec Region
of Canadian Jewish Congress, the women's division of Association of
Survivors of Nazi Oppression, in cooperation with the Jewish Education
Council in greater Montreal. To our surprise, the contest stirred much
interest and we received many entries of good quality from all levels.
The contest was open to students from grade five to university. By 1979,
"Impression on the Holocaust", as the contest was called,
reached a wider audience. I felt elevated and deeply touched by the
amount of fine, sensitive work we received. Composing a poem, writing
a story, submitting an audiovisual project, sculpture, writing, music
or lyrics, all reflecting the theme of the contest, has proven to be
a perfect tool for the young to understand the tragic past in our history.
This demanded complete involvement; they learned not only with their
minds, but we could sense their soul in the work.
We
knew that implementing Holocaust education had to be a slow process.
It needed that lapse of time, for the wounds were too fresh, too painful
even for listeners. Slowly, means wee found. We felt the contest offered
a special form, a key way to reach students and inspire them to seek
information and be free to tell on their level. The contest offered
that challenge. It encouraged people to express their own feelings in
many ways, it created an emotional impact and a deeper level of understanding
for the participant. As a result, it created a closer bond to the Jewish
people. Not surprisingly, achievement in this contest led to self-assurance
and confidence in other areas. For instance, participants Eddy Stone
and Erie Schwartz's audio visual presentation was so well received that
it is now being used at the Montreal Holocaust Memorial Centre. Copies
have also been sent to the Jewish community in the United States, and
the National Film Board of Canada has asked for a copy as a documentary.
The contest even prompted non-Jews to participate, ads they became profoundly
aware of the inhumanity of man to man and what Jewish people had to
endure during that time. In 1980-1981, the contest continued with unprecedented
success. Judging was carried out by professionals in each category.
For example, the judge for the literature in the English category was
Professor Mervin Butovsky, all other forms of art were judged by artists
Gita Caiserman Roth and Norman Kucharscky. At times I had to allocate
additional funding for entries of high quality. All these activities
were of great importance and served as another step towards integrating
education of the Holocaust in the Second World War as a historical subject
in schools.
For
the time when survivors as witnesses will be no more, there is a Memorial
Holocaust Centre in Montreal. The idea for this centre was born and
crystallized by men and women of the Association of Survivors of Nazi
Oppression, and it was planned and built by Steven Cummings with a group
of young leaders in our community. Steven's generosity and spiritual
sensitivity to our cause made this dream a reality -- a dedication quite
unique for a Canadian-born man that had no personal experience of persecution.
The Montreal Holocaust Museum tells stories in pictures and documents.
The sanctuary captures the soul. It is a holy place not only for me,
but for many others. It is a place where the ashes of our brethren rest,
brought in from Auschwitz by Aba Beer, the president of the Association
of Survivors of Nazi Oppression and National Chairman of the Holocaust
Committee of Canadian Jewish Congress. In the early years, I sometimes
served once a week as a docent to groups, including school groups of
thirty to thirty-five people.
Dabbling
in art has always been my refuge from emotional drain, and I relaxed
with drawing and painting, but did not turn into another Grandma Moses.
From many canvases I produced only, in my opinion, a few pieces worthy
to display as good art. Consequently, I switched to a different medium
in order to express myself in the arts. Stained glass caught my attention,
with its colours in glass that captures light, changes with it, deepens
or brightens in it. I found a hobby that not only gives me pleasure,
but is wonderfully useful. Stained glass windows or Tiffany lamps are
beautiful items to grace a home, and they also make appreciated gifts
that I am very proud of.
In
1987, I enrolled with my husband in College Marie Victorin to continue
our formal education which had been interrupted in Poland. Hyman had
lots of free time in his retirement, and it took us three years to graduate
with diplomas in Social Sciences. The program, which had us taking courses
in art, philosophy, political science, and comparative religion, was
challenging, interesting, and a renewal of our relationship as a couple.
As individuals, we also recaptured a youthful spirit, long gone by.
Our time at the school was also socially stimulating and helped us to
relate more and more with non-Jews, as we saw that we shared all kinds
of daily problems and concerns. We made good friends with some of the
other people in our programs, and the time was plain joy for both of
us.
In
courses like psychology: recreation and leisure in aging population,
reaffirmed my belief, precisely in the things I have been attempting
to achieve all along, to be physically fit, creatively curious, to explore
new avenues, to search within for a different approach to do better.
Legal
information taught by legal attorney Reisa Teitelbaum was intellectually
stimulating. I found personal growth, a keen interest in all aspects
of law and its demands for fair justice.
Also
in 1987, I was approached by Myra Giberovitch M.S.W., Chairwoman of
the holocaust Remembrance Committee of the Canadian Jewish Congress's
Quebec Region, to present a survivor's perspective to the community
in the Jewish Public Library. They were hosting a symposium on the theme
of "The Contribution of Holocaust Survivors to the Jewish Communal
Life." Featured speakers included Dr. William B. Helmreich, Professor
of Sociology at City College of New York (CUNY), and moderator Professor
Peter Leonard, Director of McGill's School of Social Work. I am here
including part of my speech as I presented it then:
Professor
Leonard, Professor Helmreich, honoured members...and dear friends,
It
is gratifying to hear about the positive contributions of Holocaust
survivors in the Jewish community. Something very special happens,
to hear how others see your achievements. Holocaust survivors have
not always been that fortunate. A survivor does not project ease and
laughter. He is always a reminder of a dark past that even fellow
Jews are willing to forget.
As
I reflect on the contribution survivors made to the Jewish community,
I would say the most profound contribution would be our survival itself.
Survival defies the objective of Nazi tyranny and their ultimate design.
Our survival reaffirms faith in humanity, in its strength and continuity.
Where tyranny ruled daily, I have seen compassion between the inmates.
Where cruelty and starvation devoured our youth, I witnessed and was
part of the sharing of a few crumbs. We have been morally degraded,
yet many of us displayed dignity; deplorable as it was there, some
of us behaved...as fine human beings.... A mental journey to the time
of arrival leads to one scene which sticks in my mind. We rented a
room from a Jewish family. The woman, being a good compassionate soul
full of pity, insisted on bringing me to a used clothing depot. The
things were all donated by Jewish families, and the boxes stuffed
with all kinds of apparel were kept in a badly lit basement. A group
of charity ladies were standing about encouraging survivor refugees
to pick out clothes they might be able to use. As I looked on, another
picture entered my mind. I saw a group of skeletal bodies, hungry
hands, scavenging for potato peels. I was glued to the spot. As I
was told later, I did not hear the good lady. I walked out, walked
a long time analyzing what disturbed me so much. I was free! But where
is the dignity of freedom? A need of pride?
I
missed a feeling of equality, friendship, someone to talk to who would
understand. I can safely say that not very many survivors can boast
of having Canadian Jews for friends. In the early years, most of carried
the burden of sorrow silently. Rejected on that level, we found understanding
in each other, by joining a Landsmanshaft, an organization
of members born in the same town. With the Radomer Society, we found
the support system we needed to create a healthy environment for ourselves
and our children. Seldom did a mother run out to work, to compensate
for meager earnings. The children were loved, protected, and tenderly
nurtured. A child is precious in our Jewish tradition, and more so
for parents who are survivors. We stressed strong morals and a love
for beauty and nature, and encouraged education, music, and the arts.
Indeed we put great hope into our offspring. A child's achievements
constitute the greatest gift. But psychiatrists labeled us as too
protective, overbearing, and said our traumatic experiences were being
transmitted to the children. They decided all of our good was no good.
I am not going to analyze the viability of this statement or dispute
it. Suffice it to say that by then we became a hot subject. Thank
God most survivors' offspring have grown into fine, sensitive young
people with families of their own. They have entered academia, commerce
and the professions, especially the helping professions.
Such
are the memories most of us have to bear. That sorrow and anger are
not yet subsided. We diverted the anger to love for Israel, pride
in its existence, and dignity to us as Jews and as a people.
When
troubled nightmares disturb my sleep and I picture all that devastation,
I think of how fortunate I am to have survived to live in a free,
peaceful country like Canada where one can work according to one's
potentials. Most survivors went into the trades, and a few were lucky
enough to further their education and enter the professions, while
others were successful in business. I don't know of any survivor,
ever, relying on the government or community support. Most created
strong-bonded families that are hard-working and appreciate the freedom
and opportunities the country has to offer.
But
what we endured we remember. We became keen observers of human behaviour
when it pertains to antisemitism. We recognize the signs....We had
to talk about our past experiences. We saw the need to inform the
youth to prevent it from ever happening again. As painful as the recall
was for us, it had to be told, taking into account that for the listeners
it was less painful. We had to find school principals offering suitable
books on the holocaust from the organization. I talked, explained,
finally convinced. A group from the women's division was invited to
a Yom Hashoah to speak to students. This continued for many
years. At times, a sensitive letter arrived from a child with signs
of tears on the paper, thanking us for sharing the painful experiences.
It
would be redundant for me to recall all the projects we initiated,
ideas we crystallized, took part in, or urged on. Although the media
has skillfully brought the horror of the Nazis' "Final Solution"
to the public, many books have been printed denying that it ever happened.
There are still hate mongers in our midst.
It
is for us survivors of the Holocaust to bear witness to what hate
mongers are capable of. It is for the children of survivors to carry
on. Into their able hands we lay an important task
My
deepest concern has always been and still is to avoid another Holocaust.
I have been a member of the holocaust Remembrance Committee since its
inception, and it now functions in conjunction with the Montreal Holocaust
Memorial Centre, chaired by two dedicated people, Sara Weinberg and
Sidney Zoltak. Their ability and tactful approach to members produces
wonderfully organized and solemnly dignified ceremonies, with the participation
of a whole spectrum of the community, as well as representation from
the federal, provincial, and municipal governments. A lot of thought,
planning, and organizing goes into Hashoah commemoration and I am proud
to be part of it. The Association of Survivors of Nazi Oppression women's
division, of which I am an ongoing member, still functions in its former
capacity in the new millennium thanks to a few dedicated members and
untiring leader Tola Granek.
It
has been fifty-five years that I am addressed by my present name, no
longer number A15625. I am a wife, mother, grandmother of two lovely
granddaughters, and a woman with many interests in my life. I am a person
with an identity of my own, changed like any other with years of maturity.
Also changed is my perception of the world, as its people came into
focus. Yet inwardly, I have never freed myself of that emotional stigma
of a concentration camp inmate.
|