Chapter
12
The
apartment which I secured prior to my mother's release became our first
common dwelling after three long years of separation. My mother was
busy with her new job and so I was the one who had to take care of our
immediate necessities. We needed many things: pails for water, dishes
for cooking and eating, bedding, clothing, a laundry tub (also used
for bathing) My mother insisted that I bathe every few days so as to
prevent another skin infection. She was also very concerned with my
schooling (or rather, the lack of it). I had turned fourteen on May
18, and all my schooling consisted of three grades in five years of
attendance. It was still questionable whether I would be accepted into
grade four, since I had not attended school for the last three years.
Sima Israelovna was of great help in this matter. She managed to secure
a conditional acceptance. In September, I would be tested by the principal,
if I passed the test I would be registered as a grade four pupil.
We
had to find someone to help me with my preparations and that was not
easy. Sima Israelovna advised me to go to the public library everyday
and do a lot of reading. When the librarian noticed my daily visits,
she became curious about my aims and questioned me about my intentions.
I told her that I was behind in my studies and wanted to be ready to
attend grade four. The librarian became another "connection".
She was simply a kind lady who saw me struggle to study by myself, serious
and diligent, and she decided to guide me in my studies, as well as
to explain the material which I could not comprehend by myself.
Our
first apartment turned out to be more temporary than we first imagined.
My mother learned sometime ago how to be a fortune teller by arranging
a deck of playing cards in a certain order and interpreting their combination.
This superstition was very popular in Siberia and good fortune tellers
could supplement their income significantly. Well, my mother saw in
the cards that our landlady's husband would soon come home a free man.
The landlady said that if this happened we would be rewarded with a
full pail of potatoes. To my great surprise, it did happen. When the
man came home we were told to move out as soon as possible. On the first
day of his homecoming, the husband demanded that his wife fry for him
one dozen eggs for lunch. It was some kind of dream that he kept alive
in prison and he was intent on realizing it on the very first day of
his freedom. It was not an easy assignment. She must have sold some
precious item at the local bazaar to enable her to purchase a dozen
eggs. The meal was finally served and both families were there watching
the great spectacle and breathing in the aroma of fried eggs, which
made my saliva run and my stomach gurgle. The son who never met his
father until now, regarded him as an intruder and a competitor for his
mother's attention and love. The boy who had shared his mother's large
bed till now was told to sleep on the two table benches, with a straw
mattress (a temporary arrangement, since we would have to move out soon
and he would then receive our bed). However, the poor fellow did not
like the new order, even though it was temporary. I remember waking
up in the middle of the night because of a piercing scream coming from
his parents' bed. The boy was standing by the bed with a large kitchen
knife in his hand, threatening his father and yelling at the top of
his voice: "get out of my bed." It took some time to disarm
him and calm him down.
The
next day my mother and I decided to move to the alternate temporary
apartment which I lined up prior to her release. This was a large basement
room. It had a low ceiling, many columns supporting the building above,
a wooden floor, half rotten and very musty, since there was about half
a meter of water underneath the floor. Although there was a large oven
in the room it was really impossible to heat the place properly. It
was cold, damp and it smelled of rotten organic materials. The place
was inhabited by two brothers and a sister.
The
brothers were shoemakers and their workshop was in the same room. They
always kept some pieces of leather soaking in the water underneath the
floor. The shoemaker would simply lift the floorboards and pull up a
string to which the leather was tied. This operation certainly did not
enhance the quality of the air we were breathing. It was not peaceful
at night either. The sister came home every night with another "customer".
They were often drunk and boisterous and completely disregarded the
feelings and needs of the other people in the room.
My
mother spent a lot of time everyday at the police station waiting to
be granted a permit for permanent residency in the city of Tomsk. Every
evening we would go over the questions that she was asked by the police
investigator and I would drill her about the answers that she must give.
I encouraged her to be firm and stick to her story, that she was a refugee
from the war zone in Bucovina, that her husband was drafted into the
Red Army and that her documents were stolen (a fairly common occurrence
in Russia). My mother stuck to her story stoically. I could see though
that she would not be able to last much longer: her nerves were on edge,
the interrogation had gone on for three weeks already. I encouraged
her every day; praised her steadfastness and told her that the alternative
to residency in Tomsk was unthinkable (it could even be imprisonment
for a false statement). Thank God, that the right hand did not know
what the left hand was doing. Her story was finally accepted and the
coveted papers were issued. I am still amazed that although she spent
three years in prison some 12 km out of Tomsk, the interrogator was
not aware of it. That precious piece of paper enabled us to get a permanent
apartment and we were now hard at work, drawing upon the help of our
connections, to speed up the matter so as to get out of that horrible
basement room.
In
July we found our own little treasure. There were several houses located
around a central yard. Each house contained many rooms on three floors.
Our new apartment used to be an entrance room. We walked up wooden stairs
(all houses were built of wood) onto a small balcony which was now completely
enclosed and served as a storage room for firewood and some food that
could be kept frozen for most of the year. The room itself was about
four by three meters. It had a narrow iron bed in one comer, a small
homemade table with two taborets and a large cooking stove, which was
also the only source of heat. There were two more important features
in this room. A wooden platform of two square meters, hanging from the
ceiling in the corner of the room above the stove, about one meter below
the ceiling. This was our bed for most of the year. The only place warm
enough to sleep, since in the course of every night the water in the
pails standing on the floor would form a thick crust of ice. The other
feature was a deep cellar underneath the floor. We were told that that
is the place to keep our reserves or potatoes for the long winter. We
did not have enough money to buy potatoes and sauerkraut for the whole
winter, but we did buy enough for about three months, placed it in the
cellar covered with straw and they froze.
That
was a severe blow for us and we could not afford another such disaster.
So I built a wooden box, covering about half the floor space of our
hanging bed and filled it up with potatoes. From now on the "three"
of us slept together, but another problem was created. The additional
substantial weight of the potatoes became too much of a burden for the
platform and I had to install a wooden post supporting the comer of
the platform that was not attached to the walls. We spent almost every
long evening sitting on the platform with a twenty-five watt electrical
bulb right above us. My mother worked at her knitting and I would read
the Russian classics aloud, so she could also enjoy it. Eventually,
Mrs. Gorelic's son, Sioma, who became my friend and who was a wizard
with electrical appliances, concocted an electrical hot plate.
It
was illegal to use such a device. There was no plug in the room, but
the wires were running on the ceiling above the sleeping platform. Sioma
showed me how to scrape off the insulation from each wire, at a distance
of several centimeters from each other, to prevent a short circuit,
bend the exposed ends of the hot plate wire into hooks and hook them
onto the uninsulated wire on the ceiling. The element of the hot plate,
which was placed on the platform between us, would become red hot and
give us enough heat to make our evening sessions more comfortable. I
realize now that it was a very dangerous deed, because we could have
been caught. It was not very difficult for a persistent inspector to
figure out that the electrical consumption was much higher than from
one 25 watt bulb. It was also very unsafe. The wires on the ceiling
were very old and the insulation was cracked and missing in many places.
I had to hook on the plate very gently, because any extra disturbance
of the wires caused them to short circuit. Since it happened from time
to time, I had to learn the location of the fuse and to repair it with
a thin copper piece of wire. (We had no real fuses). Thanks to Sioma
I became quite expert in doing that. The fuse box was located on the
other side of the wall, that meant that I had to choose my time to repair
it very carefully, to avoid being seen by the superintendent or other
people who might be walking through the corridor where the fuse box
was installed. I always carried a book under my arm as a pretext, ready
to visit my neighbour, the old teacher.
It
was also Sioma who got me a small loudspeaker which he installed in
our room, by drawing a double wire through the window into the yard
and attaching the wires by climbing a pole which run the radio transmission
wires. The loudspeaker had a switch (also Sioma's work) which enabled
us to listen only to those programs which were interesting to us and
shutting off all the propaganda. It is quite clear that despite all
the hardships that we suffered, there was a need to satisfy the hunger
for spiritual things. Tomsk had a fairly good repertory theatre, there
were also guest performances from other cities. We did our utmost to
scrape together enough funds so as to attend some of these performances.
How did I develop such an interest in cultural matters? I am certain
that I have to thank my eighty year old neighbour, Nadejda Michailevna
for encouraging me to appreciate the finer things in life. Nadejda Michailevna
was a retired teacher from the old school. She was born and educated
in pre-revolutionary Russia. Her bearing was noble and dignified. (Some
neighbours whispered that she belonged to an aristocratic family; I
would not be surprised). When I informed her about my preparations to
enter grade four, she immediately offered me her help.
I
think she recognized in my manners the European touch, the fact that
I could speak German and Romanian (she spoke several foreign languages,
her favourite was French.) She was a highly educated person, very knowledgeable
in literature, music and the arts in general. Her influence on me was
very great. There were a few other teachers in my life who made
a lasting impression on me, but they all came into my life some
five years later. Nadejda Michailevna came into my life when I was fourteen,
very impressionable and very receptive. She developed my taste for the
French classics: Victor Hugo, Balzac, Maupassant, Dumas, Zola (for French
art, and for music in general). She had quite a library in her small
two-room apartment (which was very beautiful in my eyes). The books
were written in the old Russian script which I quickly learned and enjoyed
reading all the books she was lending me. Although she spent some time
teaching me the basics of arithmetic and geography etc. we spent most
of the time discussing the books that I read. She taught me to read
critically and intelligently, between the lines (inter legare
= intelligent).
There
was a piano in her apartment and even though she was in her eighties
she could still play the piano very nicely, building up the foundation
for my love ofmusic. All this in the course of about one year. I became
a voracious reader of the Russian classics: Turgenev, Gogol, Tolstoy,
Checkov, Gorky (Gorky's trilogy about his life had a tremendous effect
on me, because I could so easily identify with his descriptions of his
childhood) and many others. Even today, I have in my library War
and Peace in the original, the complete poetry by Pushkin, some
Checkov, Gorky, Boris Pasternak and some others. My wife bought me the
complete writing of Sholom Aleichem in Russian. She meant well, she
thought it would give me a lot of pleasure, however, I prefer to read
Sholom Aleichem in Yiddish, it has a better taste.
I
was accepted into grade four without any difficulties and our lives
in Tomsk entered a certain routine. I spent six days in school, about
five hours every day. As the son of a Red Army soldier (so I claimed)
I was entitled to one meal a day in a special restaurant for privileged
children. I did my chores every day, which consisted of bringing two
pails of water on the shoulder yoke, cutting and chopping fire wood.
I also spent time doing homework together with Genady Gordeev, my new
friend. He was a Russian boy and, as I found out later, after several
visits to his home, he had a very privileged life indeed. His father
was Major Gordeev, a very important official in the N.K.V.D. They possessed
a very luxurious apartment, by Siberian standards; he had his own room
where we spent many hours preparing homework and playing games. He had
a seventeen-year old sister who played the accordion quite well, but
who was otherwise not interested in her brother's fourteen year old
friend.
His
mother, on the other hand, was very interested. Genady was a poor student.
I don't really know why he was not doing well. He was not very bright
but he was a willing hard worker. He needed extra time to be explained,
to be shown how to learn. When he eventually grasped his lesson, he
held on to it. His mother, therefore, saw in me a very positive influence
and she was also impressed with my European manners. She knew, of course,
that I come from a poor home and she made sure that my every visit should
be rewarded with some good food. That in itself was enough to attract
me to the Gordeev family, however, I had something else in mind: a traveling
pass that would enable us to return to Chernovitz. If I could work it
out the way I had with Igor and his parents, this would be the next
most important step in our fight for freedom.
I
told Mrs. Gordeev about my mother's beautiful knitting work and suggested
that she knit a garment for her. She was very excited about the idea
and invited my mother to come for a visit, which I promptly accepted.
My mother did come, discussed all the details with Mrs. Gordeev and
after receiving from her the necessary amount of wool, produced a beautiful
dress within a month. I really needed more time before I approached
her with my request for a pass. I wanted to meet Mr. Gordeev more often.
So far I had met him only twice. Although he treated me well and was
quite pleasant, I never forgot that he was a major in the N.K.V.D. and
what he did at home was not necessarily a good measure of the kind of
person he really was. It took me a full year of my acquaintance with
the Gordeevs and a couple more sweaters knitted by my mother before
I worked up my courage to speak to Mrs. Gordeev about the traveling
pass. She promised to discuss it with her husband, and within a few
weeks Gordeev himself gave me the answer. He told me that he was promoted
in rank and position just then, and that he was being sent out to a
new location in the far East, near Vladivostok. He wanted me to join
his family and he promised to treat me like his own son. He was even
willing to take mother along and to guarantee that she would also be
well taken care of. I imagine that this offer was to be regarded as
a great honour and as very rewarding. I had to be very careful and diplomatic
in my refusal to accept it. I tied in my explanation with my father.
I
told him that my father wrote that he would be discharged from the Red
Army in 1946 which was very soon (since this conversation took place
in 1946) and that was why we wanted to get back to Chernovitz, so as
to reunite the family. When I came to say good-bye to the Gordeevs on
the day of their departure from Tomsk, he took me aside and told me
to see a certain official in the N.K.V.D. and submit my request formally.
As long as I had the proper proof concerning my father I would get my
pass, he assured me. I thanked him very much for his fatherly concern
for me, wished him a safe trip and expressed my hope that we would hear
from each other. It was very disappointing for both of us. Gordeev thought
that he offered me a great deal more than I asked for, while I felt
that I failed in my mission. How could I prove that my father was being
discharged from the Army?