CHAPTER FOUR: AGE
SEVEN
It was the beginning of September and I was ready
to start grade two. I had a new pencil case, a pencil with an eraser, a new slate, and a
new name. On the first day of classes, Godfather walked with Jacques and me to the school.
We went by a few dull streets that looked very much like ours. The houses were all
soot-covered and it was difficult to tell them apart. They all resembled each other.
We stopped at the railroad tracks, and Godfather
warned us about not trying to cross over to the other side when the gate was down because,
he said, the trains came pretty fast and if we were hit we would be flattened like a
pancake, or ground into minced meat.
After that warning, I looked cautiously in both
directions before stepping over the tracks. We continued marching and we passed near a big
black mountain of rocks and stones; it was called a slag heap. I had noticed it before in
the distance, but I had never been so close. There was something very inviting about it,
and I told myself that someday I would climb it right to the top.
Eventually, we arrived at the school. It looked
like a sad building and quite different from the one I had gone to when I was in grade
one. Instead of bright yellow walls, this one was made of old red bricks that were
incrusted with a black dust, just like the houses in the neighbourhood. "It is
because we are so near the coal mine," had explained Godfather when I asked him once
why everything was covered with soot.
We went to see the director. Godfather introduced
us as his god-children and said that our parents were somewhere in North Africa; that was
why we did not have any school records. We were asked our names and I gave my new one for
the first time. I could feel my heart beating fast when I spelled it out, but when the
director wrote it down without any questions, I knew that I'd be pretty safe as long as I
did not make any mistakes. He then gave me a book to read aloud. After I finished reading
a page, he said that was enough. He just wanted to test my reading skills.
Jacques spelled his name out without any
hesitation, but he was not quite as good with his reading. He was put in the same grade as
me even though he was a year older.
We were taken to our classroom and given a place at
a desk, but not together. I was seated next to a boy with a shaven head. Since we were not
allowed to speak until recess, it was only then that I learned that his name was Pierre.
All the other boys knew each other from last year, and at first they gathered around
Jacques and me and got ready to start a fight with the "newcomers". It did not
last long though, because Jacques was a bit of a bully himself and he gave back as much as
he received. Then the teacher started yelling at us and after that everyone stopped
fighting. I was relieved because I had never fought with anyone, and I was a bit scared.
Later that day, Pierre became my friend when I helped him with his dictation.
Our teacher's name was Monsieur Cheval, although he
had nothing that would make you think of a horse. He was short and squat and he never
stopped smoking. When the cigarette in his mouth went down to a butt, he would use it to
light the one that he had resting on his ear. He would then take a new one from a box on
his desk and stick it on his ear to replace the one he had just taken. That way he was
always sure to have one ready to be lit.
He distributed books, and we were given various
assignments throughout the day which made it go very fast. Shortly before the class was to
be let out, we were given work to be done at home. That was something new to me, and it
was to become a daily occurrence.
I was glad the first day had gone fairly well and I
was now looking forward to the next one. I hoped that it would be just like the previous
one, without any unpleasant surprises. There had been too many of those for my taste
during the past summer months.
After we had left the church with Godfather, we
walked for a long time and I felt I was getting deeper and deeper into unknown territory.
I didn't think I'd be able to find Bonne-maman's house again, on my own, if I had to. We
came to a gray street, with gray houses. We stopped at one that looked just like the one
next to it. I saw a curtain move in the window, and then the door was opened by a skinny
lady with round thin-rimmed glasses. Her mouth was set in an unsmiling frown when she
looked down at us.
"Say hello to your godmother," said
Godfather.
"Hello, Godmother," said Jacques and I in
unison.
"Come in," she said, "don't just
stand there." She gave a worried look up and down the street before closing the door
after us. "Lunch is ready, so you children better go and wash your hands and come and
sit down. I'll show you where you can wash and where the toilet is, in case you have to
go."
We followed her to the rear of the house and she
asked us our names. Then she showed us where the sink was. The toilet was next door to it
and I was glad to see that it was a real one. There was a chain that you had to pull to
flush it and I went to the toilet just so that I could try it out.
When our hands were clean and dry, we were directed
to the dining room for the Sunday dinner. Godfather was seated at the head of the table.
To his right was a pleasant-looking young woman with rosy cheeks. She smiled at us and
said her name was Lucienne. She was Godfather's daughter.
Jacques and I were given our places to sit right
across from Lucienne, and her mother sat at the other end. When everyone was seated,
Godfather bent his head and closed his eyes. At the same time Lucienne and Godmother did
the same and Godfather began to pray aloud. In doubt as to what we should do, Jacques and
I looked at each other. Then, as if by common accord, we lowered our eyes like everyone
else. When the prayer was finished, everyone said "amen", and then Godmother
began to dish out the soup.
I was not very hungry and I nibbled at my bread
while watching everyone around me. Godfather would pick up a slice of bread and, after
dunking it in his soup, he would put the whole slice in his mouth. I was very impressed by
this since to me a slice of bread was a whole meal; to him it was just a bite.
During the meal he explained to his wife and to his
daughter what the story was to be about us. "We should be getting their identity
cards in a couple of days," he told them, "and, with God's help, everything
should go well." Lucienne did not ask any questions or make any comments. She just
said that she would go upstairs to shift a few things around. I would have to share the
big bed with her, and Jacques would sleep on a cot in the corner of her room.
Godmother did not look convinced. She looked
distinctly unhappy about the situation but she remained silent. After lunch, she went to
do the dishes in the kitchen with Lucienne, while we stayed in the dining room, not quite
knowing what to do in this unfamiliar house. Godfather picked up a book and said he would
read us a story from the bible.
"Just like the "talmud"" I
said, "but written in French."
"Not quite. It is more than just a translation
from the Hebrew Old Testament," said Godfather. "It also contains the New
Testament, which tells us all about our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ."
I had never heard about any of that before, and I
listened with interest to this new story.
Godmother interrupted to say that she had looked
into the bag we had brought and that there was very little in there. Since Jacques had not
brought anything, we had almost no clothes at all between the two of us. Godfather told
her not to worry; it had been better not to draw anyone's attention by carrying too much
luggage, but during the week we could go and pick up a few more things. "There won't
be anyone there, but their father said that the place would be open. All you have to do is
take one of the kids with you and he can show you where it is exactly."
That night it took me a long time to fall asleep. I
had not eaten much, the food just did not appeal to me. And it felt strange to be in a
room with Jacques. I had not liked him when I first met him, but at least he knew Papa and
we could talk, in a low voice so that no one would hear us, about the people with whom we
were both familiar.
I had not heard Lucienne coming to bed, but she was
there the next morning when I awakened. To see this stranger sleeping next to me added to
the fantasy of what had happened, as if it had been a bad dream, but one from which you
did not wake up.
For breakfast we had bread and jam, and a big bowl
of coffee with some milk. I ate some bits of bread while staring from the corner of my eye
at Godfather. Just as he had done in his soup, he would dip a whole slice of bread in his
coffee and gobble it up in one large mouthful, like an ogre. It reminded me of Bon-Papa
gobbling up his fish head.
After breakfast he left for work, and when
Godmother had cleaned up, she took me by the hand and we went to get a streetcar that
would take us to my street. I had never been in a streetcar, and I enjoyed sitting near a
window and looking down at the pedestrians as we moved along on our metal tracks.
After a while, I started to recognize some familiar
landmarks, and we got off at a stop not far from Bonne-maman's house. I knew she would not
be home, but I was still excited to go there, and I looked forward to rummage among all my
things.
As we came closer, I saw Madame Patrice coming
towards us. I started smiling and I was prepared to greet her and to introduce her to
Godmother, but she barely looked at me. Instead she looked sharply at Godmother as she
went by us and whispered in an urgent voice: "Don't stop! Keep going! They are
there!"
Godmother tightened her grip on my hand and,
looking straight ahead, she kept walking until we got to the corner where we crossed the
street. Just at that moment, a streetcar came to a stop. We climbed on without her saying
anything and she paid the conductor. I saw that her face was all white and that her hands
were shaking.
I was not sure what was going on, or why Madame
Patrice had whispered that we should not stop. I stared out the window as the tram went by
Bonne-maman's house, and I saw through the open front door someone in a dark leather coat
shuffling through some papers. I only had time for a quick glance, but I noticed that
there were also some soldiers in gray uniforms stepping over upturned drawers and smashed
lamps. It was only then that I began to be afraid.
We did not speak until we got back to Godfather's
house.
"So much for that!" said Godmother in a
trembling voice. "We were darn lucky! It was by a sheer fluke that we escaped being
arrested! If that woman had not warned us, it would have been the end!"
She repeated the very same words that evening when
Godfather came home from work. "We could all be shot!" she added, terrified,
staring at her husband. "It was supposed to be safe to go there! Now what? All they
have is the clothes on their backs. How are we going to cope? You should start thinking of
your own family!"
She sounded scared and upset, even when Godfather
reminded her about the money that aunt Rushka had left.
"That's not going to go very far. And it's
easy to give promises," she added, "but how do we know she will keep them? And
what about the danger to our lives? Haven't you seen the posters around town?"
We children were sent to bed, but we could hear the
grown-ups talking downstairs for a long time, and we wondered what all this was going to
mean for us.
Next day, Godfather went to work and nothing was
mentioned about what had happened the day before. Jacques and I spent the day quietly
around the house, trying to think of something to do. I looked at all the objects: vases,
photographs, a tobacco container made from a coconut which was supported by three black
elephants, a carved ivory tusk that came from Africa, and many more unusual things that
made you think of far off adventures.
When Godfather came home, we had supper and then we
settled down to what I thought would be an evening with more stories from the Bible. But
we were in for surprise. Pastor Barbeza dropped in unexpectedly during the evening. He
looked very serious. Godfather invited him in for coffee, but he said he could not stay.
He just wanted to deliver a postcard.
"It arrived in the afternoon mail, and it is
for you even though it was addressed to the church," he said. "I thought it
would be important for you to see it as soon as possible." He then looked down at us
as he left, and did his best to give a reassuring smile.
Godfather looked at the signature on the postcard.
He seemed surprised. "It's from your father," he said glancing at me, and then
he started reading it aloud.
Dear Sir,
I pray to God that you will
get this card, I gave whatever was in my wallet to someone, hoping
that he will drop it in a mailbox and that it will not go astray.
Just a few words to tell you
that I'm boarding a train to an unknown destination. BEWARE of RenČ
S. We were at his house for supper, and that "friend" went
out to buy a pack of cigarettes. Five minutes later he came back with
some gentlemen who put us on the train. I hope you understand, I cannot
say more. R.S. does not know your address, but he does know the one
from the grand-parents. Do not go back there!
Hoping to see you all some
day. Farewell, Arthur.
There was a moment of silence when he finished
reading the postcard.
"So that's why they were at the grand-parent's
house!" exclaimed Godfather.
"Oh! My God! They were actually looking for
them!" said Godmother with a frightened shudder.
"Can I have the card?" I asked, anxious
to have something that had actually been written by Papa.
"You can have a look at it," answered
Godfather, "but we must burn it right away. It is too dangerous to keep, it might
fall into the wrong hands." He explained to me and to Jacques that our parents had
been denounced by that so-called friend of his, who was a Judas, and that they had been
arrested and sent away somewhere. We would all have to pray for their safety, wherever
they might be. He then let me read the postcard.
After I finished reading it, Godfather lit a match
and set fire to the card before dropping it in the kitchen stove.
Godmother was still upset. She had seen a poster
that warned people about "lost or abandoned children of Jews". They were to be
taken to a registration centre, an orphanage that had been set up especially for them.
Anyone failing to report to this place for registration was passable of the death penalty.
She urged Godfather to think of his own family. "And what about that aunt that was
supposed to deliver their identity papers? Not a word from her!"
"She said it would take a few days...."'
answered Godfather looking rather shaken himself.
"How do you know she has not been arrested as
well? And being tortured somewhere to reveal the whereabouts of the rest of the family? Do
you want us to be next?"
"We have to trust in God," he said
wavering.
Jacques and I looked on silently from one to the
other as our fate was being discussed. I felt more alone than ever now that I knew my
father had been arrested, and that his best friend was not to be trusted. I was now
totally at the mercy of Godfather who looked scared, in spite of his size, and uncertain
as to what he should do.
We went to bed not knowing what was going to
happen, but next morning we were told by a very subdued and ill-at-ease Godfather that it
was dangerous for everyone if we did not register at that orphanage. He would take us
there himself as soon as we finished our breakfast.
He put on his good Sunday clothes, picked up his
Bible, and we set off first by streetcar to the station, and then by train to Brussels,
the city where one had to be registered. Jacques and I did not speak very much. I looked
out the window and tried to imagine where and with whom we would end up. Was I going to be
left at that orphanage? Godfather looked pale and unhappy as he sat in a corner reading
his Bible.
We arrived in the city and after asking for
directions a few times, Godfather eventually found the building where we had to go. We
were directed to a large room, on the second floor, that was jam-packed with children of
all ages. It was hot and noisy, and some of the younger ones were crying. No one seemed to
know what to do, and everyone looked very unhappy.
We made our way through the crowd and came close to
a desk that was overflowing with papers. A tired-looking woman was writing in a big book.
She raised her eyes and before anything could be said, she told us to sit down and wait
our turn.
Godfather sat down on a wooden bench and we stayed
very close, not daring to let go of him for an instant. He closed his eyes and and I knew
he was praying. Then he opened his Bible and read a few verses which seemed to make up his
mind.
"Come on children!" he said as he stood
up. "Let's get out of here."
We pushed our way out as fast as we could, and just
as we started to go down the stairs a woman holding a little boy grabbed Godfather's
sleeve. In a desperate voice, she begged him to take her son with him.
"Please, I don't know who you are, but I have
been watching you as you sat there with these two children. With you, I feel there is a
hope he'll make it. We have some relatives in America, and after the war they will look
for him. But here," she gestured at the the teeming room, "there is not a chance
in hell... Please, for God's sake."
Godfather looked at her and the child. After a
moment of hesitation he asked: "What's his name?"
"Daniel."
Looking suddenly strong and sure of himself,
Godfather nodded his head, took the little boy by the hand, and the three of us left the
building and made our way to the station. Daniel cried at first saying he wanted his
Mummy, but once she was out of sight he became silent. In the train he quickly fell asleep
and did not wake up until we reached Charleroi.
I was so happy that we had not been left at that
horrible orphanage that I kept singing to myself the song Papa used to sing.
Tout va trĖs bien, madame la marquise,
Tout va trĖs bien, tout va trĖs bien...
It was late by the time we arrived at what
was now home. When we walked into the house, I saw Godmother's mouth open
in disbelief. There were now three children instead of two!
"Alright, woman," said Godfather before
his wife could utter a word. "Before you say anything I want to make it clear that
there will be no more talk about this. I may have faltered in a moment of weakness, but
once we got there I prayed and asked God for guidance. The first thing I read when I
opened the bible thereafter was "Trust in the Lord and you will be saved". That
did it. It was the sign I had been waiting for."
"And what about him?" she pointed at
Daniel who had been staring at this new stranger.
"God will protect us. His name is Daniel, and
did Daniel not get saved from the lion's den and the fiery furnace because he put his
trust in the Lord?"
That was the end of the discussion.
A few days later, after the Sunday service at the
church, Pastor Barbeza handed an envelope to Godfather as we were leaving. When we got
home, he opened it and found identity papers for us children, as well as some ration cards
which would permit us to obtain some extra food at the grocery store. It had been
delivered that very same week.
When we had first started to settle in after our
return from Brussels, we had stayed in the house most of the time. There was a small
garden with a pear tree in the back and we were allowed to play there, but not to go out
in the street. Only after we had received our identity papers did Godmother allow us to
step outside. We would accompany her to the grocery store, or to the bakery, and she
introduced us as her god-children to the neighbours and the store keepers. Occasionally,
she even sent us to the store on our own to buy something that she needed to prepare the
meals.
Daniel was the youngest and he received a lot of
attention. Jacques and I were left on our own to find something to do, which was not easy
in the beginning. There were no toys, or games, or books except for the bible. We found
out that most of the things we had been used to do were considered to be sinful. Such as
playing cards, or going to the cinema, or listening to music.
There was no phonograph, but there was a piano
which Lucienne played. I enjoyed listening to her. Her father was not pleased when she
played anything other than church hymns, but when he was not at home she would sometimes
sit down and play some other songs, or a piece she liked by Schumann.
I had brought some of my old comic books, but when
I showed Godfather a notice in the last issue that encouraged the readers to inform the
authorities if they knew of any Jews, he became angry and saw that as proof that it was
sinful reading. They were immediately thrown out. I was a little bit upset, but not too
much because I wanted to do anything to please him.
I learned to pray and to say amen like everyone
else. On Sundays we attended the service at the Church, and we met some other children
during Sunday School. It was fun there, because there always was someone there to read us
a story. We could also borrow some books with lots of pictures, as long as we brought them
back on the following week. Those books were not considered to be sinful, and there was
always in them a moral to be learned. At home, Godfather would read us some beautiful
tales from the Bible. One of my favourites was Noah and the Ark. I also learned all about
Jesus, and many other people with strange and fascinating names, like Jeremiah, or
Nebuchadnezzar.
I was glad when the time arrived to go back to
school, because it meant that I was not going to be sent anywhere else. There had been no
more talk of registering at an orphanage, or of any other upset or catastrophe. I kept
hoping that I would get another postcard from my father, and every night I prayed very
hard for God to keep him safe, as Godfather had taught me to do.
I liked going to school. Every morning after
breakfast I would take my satchel, check that I had not forgotten my homework, and Jacques
and I would set off on our own. Sometimes we had a fight, and because he was bigger than
me I was always a bit fearful of him. But I would threaten not to help him with his
homework, and that was sufficient to keep him in line. For the most part, we tolerated
each other, and he would even come to my defense in the school yard if I was bullied by
some of the bigger boys.
At recess we played soldier, or talked about the
war. Someone said that he heard over the radio that Canadian troops had staged a landing
on the French coast, in a place called Dieppe. Everyone got excited but it turned out that
the Germans had beaten them back. They were invincible.
When the autumn leaves began to turn yellow and
fall down from the trees in the schoolyard, Monsieur Cheval gathered bagfulls of them and
hung them to dry all over the classroom. They looked like colourful laundry drying on
strings that crisscrossed the ceiling. When they began to dry and turn brown, he would
give us some assignment to work on, while he picked the dry leaves and crumpled them up to
make his tobacco. He would then roll his supply of cigarettes for the week.
On the way home there was always some rough stuff
among the boys. If you ended up tumbling on the ground, your clothes always got dirty or
ripped, and Godmother would become angry at that. A few times we had to stop at the
railroad tracks because the gate was down and the lights were flashing, which meant that a
train was approaching. It usually consisted of innumerable wagons loaded with coal that
rumbled on for a long time before the gate went up again. The ground shook and the noise
was overpowering when the locomotive thundered by, spewing smoke like a gigantic unleashed
dragon.
I had often a nightmare that included such a
locomotive. It would be chasing me along the tracks, coming closer and closer, while I
found myself unable to move, as if my feet were stuck in molasses. I was completely
terrified, and just as I was about to be crushed by the steel monster, I'd wake up in a
sweat, my heart pounding wildly away.
Sometimes I thought about Bonne-maman. I missed
her. And when Godfather told us a story about one of the prophets, I always saw in my mind
a picture of Bon-papa wrapped in his praying shawl. I told Godfather about the time I
danced around the table with the other men while holding a torah, and he had a good laugh.
He called it a pagan rite. I asked him what pagan meant, and he explained that it was the
sort of thing that primitive savages did in the jungle in Africa because they did not know
any better. They needed to receive the word of Jesus Christ to become civilized. They
believed in magic and in statues, instead of Our Lord.
He showed me a black wood sculpture that he had
brought back from the Congo, and I instantly fell in love with it. It had been carved by
his "boy" who always called him "Bwana" and who remembered his father
eating human flesh. That story made the statue all the more bewitching to me.
And then I discovered Christmas. For weeks before,
we had been practicing for a pageant at Sunday School. I was to be a Wise Man, and my face
would be blackened with a burnt cork. I liked disguises and having to be someone else: it
felt safe to be unrecognizable.
I had memorized the lines that I would have to
recite, and I was all ready for the big day, although I was not sure exactly what else was
supposed to happen besides appearing on a stage and facing the whole congregation. On the
day before Christmas, we all had our bath, just as we did every Saturday night. Godmother
would heat kettles of water on the stove and empty them in a big wooden tub which had been
brought in the middle of the kitchen. Then Daniel would have his bath first since he was
the youngest. I would be next, and then Jacques. Then it would be Godfather's turn, at
which point we children would be sent up to bed. It always felt good to be clean. For a
while, you did not have the impression of being covered by the gray and black dust that
seemed to be everywhere.
The next morning, I had a surprise waiting for me
downstairs; this time, a pleasant surprise. A little fir-tree had been set up in
the dining room, and there were candies, cookies and glass balls of all colours dangling
from it. There were also candles in small candle holders attached to the branches and a
big silver star right at the top. When the candles had been lit the previous evening, I
was sure that it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. But this morning, something
had been added. There were three mysterious packages lying under the tree. A bright red
ribbon was tied around their multi-coloured wrappings. They were presents, we were told,
for each one of us, from Saint Nicholas.
"Come on, don't be shy, open it!" said
Lucienne as she watched us holding the enticing parcels, unwilling to disturb this
unexpected gift, for fear that it might vanish.
I finally dared to undo the bow and to start
unwrapping the paper. When I saw what was inside, I was completely ecstatic: a colouring
book and a box of crayons! We all had received similar gifts, and pretty soon we were
spread out on the floor with our crayons, comparing the colours and deciding how to best
fill in our respective black and white images. Pretty soon, I started to draw my own
pictures on any paper that I could find around the house, until it was time to get dressed
in our good clothes and to set off for the temple for the Christmas performance.
It was a very exciting day. Everyone applauded
after we had finished our presentation on the stage. There was a lot of singing, and all
the children received small presents, pictures, or books with bible stories, but I could
not wait to get back to my own crayons.
There was a special dinner that day, and for
dessert Godmother opened a can of pineapple which, she said, was still from before the
war. She had kept it for an occasion such as this, and it was the last can in her
cupboard. It was shared by the whole family, and I savoured for a long time the half a
slice which I received, eating it slowly and making it last as long as possible.
The wonderful Christmas holidays were almost over,
but there was another pleasant surprise: snow! I had never seen snow before, and I woke up
one morning to the magic sight of big white flakes coming down from the sky. When you
caught one on your hand, you could see a little star before it started to melt. It was
like millions of stars coming down and covering everything. Instead of a drab gray, the
streets, the houses, and even the slag heap were now a sharp contrast of black and white.
The only problem to spoil the event was that in no
time at all our shoes and socks were completely soaked. Godfather had repaired our shoes
when the soles had worn down. He had an old tire in the basement, and I had watched him
using a frighteningly sharp instrument to cut out the shape of a sole to the right size.
He had then turned the shoe over, put it on an anvil shaped to receive it, and nailed the
sole to it with a hammer. It had lasted well until now, but our feet had grown, and it was
getting tighter and tighter to put the shoes on, particularly when they were wet.
Our socks were also getting worn out. Godmother had
a wooden egg with which she used to darn the holes. She would put the egg in the sock so
that the hole was stretched over it. Then she would weave back and forth a thick woolen
thread that was attached to a needle, until the hole was completely covered. But there
were now more repairs over the repairs and she complained that it was getting impossible
to fix. It was decided that we needed desperately a few new things to put on our feet, and
so, one morning, we all went to the market.
I had not been there since the time that I had been
living with Bonne-maman. We had been there quite often and I was certain that I would
recognize some of the people, but I was disappointed. I did not encounter a single face
that I knew. Where could they all be? Had they also been arrested or gone into hiding? It
was as if all the people that I remembered had existed solely in my imagination. The only
thing that remained the same was the noise and the haggling. There were a lot of stands
with old things for sale, but I did not see much food, and no chickens at all.
After wandering for awhile through the crowded
market-place, we ended up trying out wooden shoes for size until we each had found a pair
that fitted. Godfather paid for them, and after purchasing a few pairs of socks at another
stall, we went home eager to try out our new footwear.
Before we could actually use them, a leather strap
had to be nailed across the top, so that your foot would not slip out when you walked.
When that was done, we were shown how to stuff in some straw, to keep your feet warm when
it was cold outside. It took some getting used to, but when school started, we clumped
proudly to the classroom thinking that we would be the only ones with such distinguishable
shoes.
Far from it! Almost everyone in the class wore the
same, and since they inevitably ended up getting wet by the time we got there, we had to
take them off and put them near the stove so they would be dry by the time we were ready
to go home. Since they all looked about the same, it would have been impossible to sort
out which belonged to whom had we not written down our name on the inside of each shoe.
The stove was in the middle of the classroom, and Monsieur Cheval had to keep it going by
shoveling in some coal every so often. It was the only way to heat the classroom and we
envied the boys who had been lucky to get a desk near the centre.
There was a lot of excitement on the first day
back, and Monsieur Cheval had to shout a lot to keep us quiet. The director came to the
class to tell us that it was dangerous to put a stone in a snowball. Someone could get
blinded, and anyone getting caught doing such a thing would be immediately expelled.
At recess we tried to make a snowman by rolling a
big ball of snow, but we did not have enough time to finish it. After school we had a lot
of fun throwing snowballs at each other. By the time we got home, we were cold, wet, and
happy.
The grown-ups complained that there was more snow
and that it stayed longer than anyone could remember, but we children did not mind, even
though at times it became uncomfortably chilly and damp when we ran out of coal. We just
had to add a few more layers of clothes. Eventually, it started to get warmer. A pale sun
broke through the haze that hovered permanently overhead. The snow melted and everything
turned back to its normal grayness. One day in February, someone came in at school with
big news. The Germans had taken quite a beating on the Eastern Front in a place called
Stalingrad. No one was supposed to know about it, since it was illegal to listen to the
radio -- except for the local news which always spoke of German victories or of football
scores. We did not even have a radio at home, but one of the children in my class had an
uncle who listened to the BBC, a program that came all the way from England. We thought at
first that it was impossible and that he was just boasting, but he swore that he had not
made it up. He had heard it himself when he went to his uncle's house.
So! The Germans were not invincible after all!
Spring was not far away. The leaves started opening
on the trees, we could stop putting straw in our shoes, and we looked forward to play
outside whenever we could. Beside the weather, there was another interesting change: we
started to have air-raid alerts. A siren would start screaming, and it was the signal for
everyone to go down to the basement. Godfather said that it would be dangerous to be
trapped inside if ever there was a bombardment here, and the next day he took a big shovel
and started to dig a shelter in the back of the garden. He had been a soldier during the
First World War and that is where he had learned to dig trenches. He scooped out a big
hole and made some steps to make it easy to go down into it. The hole was then covered
with some wooden boards and an old sheet of corrugated metal. Finally, he shoveled earth
on top of the whole thing, and we had not only a shelter but also a secret house where we
could go and play, even when there was no air raid.
Occasionally, we would hear from far away the deep
droning sound of airplanes way up in the sky. It looked like there were hundreds of them.
We knew that they were American squadrons of B-29 bombers on their way to Germany. They
looked like tiny toys, and you could barely see them as they flew overhead while little
puffs of smoke appeared all around them. Those were the German anti-aircraft guns shooting
at them, but they were so high that they just couldn't be hit. If we happened to be at
school during an alert, Monsieur Cheval had to interrupt the class and we all had to get
under the desk until the all-clear signal was given.
Like everyone else in my class, I knew how to
distinguish between the Americans and the British. The Americans always came in large
numbers and flew very high, while the British would suddenly appear out of nowhere, flying
so low that you could see the pilot in the cockpit. A Spitfire flew by one day with a
couple of other planes. They dropped some bombs and we could see that the target they were
aiming for had been hit because there was a big explosion. A "dog fight" ensued
and one of the German planes was shot down. The pilot jumped out and I watched,
mesmerized, as his parachute opened. It had been me in that Spitfire, swerving and making
loops, and shooting up the enemy. Suddenly I was hit, and my arm was almost pulled out of
its socket.
"Are you crazy?" screamed Godmother as
she hit me again. "Do you want to be killed? Get into the shelter immediately and
stay there until the all-clear signal!"
I went down into the shelter, smiling. I knew what
I wanted to be when I grew up: a fighter pilot, so I could be way up there in the sky,
like a bird, plunging down with all my guns blazing. I also knew that Godmother liked me:
she had been worried enough about my safety to hit me.
The Easter holidays arrived, and I learned all
about the crucifixion of Jesus after he was denounced to the Romans by Judas. I also
learned about His Resurrection, and about eternal life after death, unless you were such a
sinner that you went straight to Hell for eternity.
Godmother said that there should have been a nice
dinner for Easter, but that it was getting harder to manage because food was getting more
and more rationed. We used to go with her to the store to help carry what she bought, but
there was no need for it any longer since there was so little that one could get. She
could carry it it all by herself, and sometimes she sent one of us on our own to pick up a
few things.
There was a field not too far from the house that
could be used for growing your own food. Jacques and I went one day with Godfather to help
him plant potatoes. He turned over the soil with his shovel, and then Jacques went ahead
with a stick to make a hole in the ground, while I followed behind him with some potatoes
which I dropped into the hole he had made. We would go back to that field every week to do
some weeding, and Godfather explained that, God willing, there would be plenty of potatoes
to eat next winter. I was very proud to have helped planting that food, and I was
delighted a few weeks later when I saw the first shoots popping out of the ground.
The school year came to an end. We received our
report cards, handed back our reading books, and, when the bell rang, everyone rushed out
shrieking madly with joy, even those who had failed and who would have to do the year over
again, for this marked the beginning of our long summer vacation.
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